i find it easier to be blunt with myself. i feel better about things when i am. no false dreams or things to look forward to. i can just focus on what's going on now. i enjoy that.

i've been listening to a lot of middle school/elementary songs. i really miss sugarcult and all that insane stuff that i listened to when i was 10. i'm also getting interested in a lot of folkish/indie stuff. lots of female vocals. i kinda dig it. there isn't much to say. i think i'm slowly getting back into doing everything for school... when it's supposed to be done. i just wanna get out as fast as possible, doing the best that i can. then i'm off. i can only hope for the best. but i'm trying not to think about all of that. at the moment, i don't think my future is very stable. and thinking about it is only going to fuck up my mind and mood. i'm hoping to start stretching my ears again within the next week or so. i miss my lobeys. i look weird without them. ah that's about it.

xox.

-a.